10:00am
Saturday March 26th
Anaheim Free Methodist Church
1001 North Mayflower Street
Anaheim, CA 92801
The RN this morning warned me not to watch her being packed up and rolled away. She said to would be very upsetting to see your loved one put in a body bag. She also said the handling of the body like luggage is very traumatic. She recommended everyone be in a distant room.
When the RN first arrived, she moved Satomi around some and things flopped around. All the things that we were so careful with only a day before.
That little bit upset me so I sure as hell wasn’t going to watch them load her up.
When the mortuary van arrived, I move her family into the kitchen. I stayed downstairs too.
There was a lot of movement and noises. I caught a glimpse of them bringing Satomi down the stairs wrapped in some sort of cover. She was strapped to a stretcher. The stretcher was long so they had to stand her up to go around the corners on our staircase. I saw her flop around and it really upset me. I couldn’t watch her being rolled away. I just couldn’t do it.
But before I knew it, she was gone.
Once we finalize the Service details, I will be announcing it here so please keep checking back to this blog for updates.
I’m so sorry to report that our beloved Satomi passed away at 3:00am this morning.
I was with her and held her hand. She was in no pain.
I called her family, friends, and woke my Parents. I haven’t woken up Kandice and Jillian yet. We decided to wait until just before their normal wake-up time. They aren’t going to school today.
It’s 4:30am now and the RN just left. The mortuary is picking her up at 7:00am.
I’m sitting next to Satomi. She looks so calm-Sleeping like she used to before all the head and neck pain.
I’m all screwed up-sad and confused-I feel like I have a hundred things to do today. So much in my life is different now overnight.
I tried to imagine how this would feel so many times. I hit the logistics right on, but the underlying emotions, the dull headache, and the concern for the girls is all unexpected.
Today is going to be a long day.
As most of you know from reading my recent posts, Satomi isn’t doing well.
Her condition is worsening and it seems like new issues arise all the time. Managing visitors has become very difficult and I must spend my time caring for her and my family. So as of today, I am officially closing our home to visitors.
There are a couple of friends traveling from a long distance in the next few days that shall still be allowed in. Family and those people so close to us that they might as well be family, will also continue to have free rein. I apologize to all the rest of you. I know that there were a few that were patiently waiting for a spot.
I will post as often as possible so keep checking back.
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