The Pet-CT scan and bloodwork are CLEAR.
There is no sign of cancer anywhere in her body (besides what’s left in her brain).
There was much talk about the treatment of her remaining brain tumor and the likely cause of it but I will save that explanation for later this evening.
Although there is a long road ahead and there remains real risks, we are just so happy with the news. It’s been a long time since we had really good news.
Waiting…
My stomach is churning. My mind is racing. The room is chilly. We can hear the leafblower running outside.
Waiting…
We’re waiting in the Dr’s exam room for our Oncologist. Scared is not a strong enough word.
Waiting…
The Doctor is here…
We finished the Pet-CT and the bloodwork. Her poor left arm looks terrible-Bruises and holes everywhere. Remember she can’t get any needles in her right arm because of the removed lymphnodes on that side.
Satomi wanted to grab a bite at Ruby’s.
We’re going to discuss the results and plan of treatment with the Oncologist tomorrow. We’re both nervous. This will be a big day, a huge day.
I think she almost cried while we ate. I distracted her with talk of Kandice and Jillian.
Satomi is sleeping soundly now. The appointments were a lot of excitement compared to the past few days. She had trouble with the scenery moving by the car window so fast; She says its over stimulation.
We’re at the Imaging Lab and Satomi just got injected with the dye marker. We are waiting in a dark room to let the dye circulate within her system and bind to the cancer cells. It’s peaceful and quiet here except for my Blackberry keyboard clicks.
Sat is talking to me about Kandice and Jillians upcoming birthdays and annual check-ups. She’s such a good Mom.
I just confirmed with the technician that the results will be ready for our Oncologist appointment tomorrow. I’m so relieved.
If satomi is up to it, we will go down the street and do her bloodwork. She couldn’t eat before this test so she is quite hungry.
A Tuesday has come and gone.
I got mad an Kandice today. After I picked her up from preschool she wanted to visit some baby chicks in one of the other classrooms. It was 90°F and I was already crabby from a long day of work. “No honey, we need to go home and see Mommy. You can see them tomorrow”. Kandice started crying and pouting and that isn’t normal. I took her hand and briskly walked to the car. “Why can’t you just see the bird tomorrow? Do you want Daddy to get mad? Don’t you want to go home and see Mommy? It’s hot and Granny made dinner”. Kandice said that she wanted Mommy to pick her up from school from now on. That hurt my feelings. I told her she was lucky to have a Mommy.
As the days go by I can tell that my fuse is getting shorter. It’s been less than a week since the operation. I’m working hard to keep my head straight-It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever done. Satomi needs me to be her rock: Stable and optimistic-supportive-not stressed or scared. For my own psyche, it’s just impossible but for her, I can do it wholeheartedly. No wavering, no pause-a damn rock and with a smile to boot.
We scheduled the Pet-CT scan for tomorrow afternoon. If things go well, we may have a prognosis during our Oncologist appointment on Thursday afternoon.
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