Our First Night “Alone”
Our beloved Sandra left a few hours ago. As you can imagine, it was an emotional goodbye on all sides. Satomi’s Mom cried and profusely thanked Sandra for her help.
It’s now 11:15pm and I miss her immensely. At 10:00pm, I gave Satomi a cocktail of medicine similar to last night. It’s not working and Satomi’s restless, tossing, and turning. Luckily she’s not in pain.
I bumped up the Ambien dose to maximum. The Oxycodone and Decadron are already maxed out. If things continue to suck, I can give her another Adavan and as a last resort, Haldol. She’s been so lucid during the day, I don’t want to give it but her and our sanity are at risk here.
Satomi’s Mom didn’t want me to give her the extra dose of Ambien. I had to explain that this was less than usual and what could occur if these were not given. I really hope I can calm Satomi down. I don’t think her Mom can bear the sight of what happens if I don’t.
We’ll just have to wait and see.
Midnight Update: It looks like she’s finally sleeping. Hopefully I don’t jinx it but I hear snoring and she hasn’t moved for nearly 30 minutes. Cross your fingers!!
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