A New Year

I’ve had to re-start this post several times already.  I am a bit torn about it, don’t want to jinx it, and/or don’t want to contradict myself.  So let me get straight to the point:  I am actually optimistic about 2010.

But let me premise that a bit.  I know that I am optimistic because things are actually going well now.  Satomi’s cancer seems to be in remission, the scar tissue in her brain is shrinking (albeit ever so slowly), she’s been off of the steroids for over a month so her function is improving, she’s lost a few pounds, her scars are healing, and she’s about to have her spine fixed.

Optimism is very dangerous.  If I have learned nothing over these past 2+ years is that I need to prepare for the worst.  The last thing my fragile psyche needs is disappointment.

But what the heck, at least for a while anyway, I’ll let myself bask in my newfound optimism.  I’ll worry about reality tomorrow.

Happy New Year Everyone!